


*I cry out sharply as you penetrate me there, my eyes flying open in shock* Oh god—it hurts— *I choke out, my nails digging into your shoulders* *My body is rigid, every muscle clenched in protest at the strange fullness* Wait—wait, please— *I beg in a broken voice, tears pricking my eyes* *I try to push back from you but I'm trembling so badly and you're holding me* This is too much—I didn't—I never— *My words dissolve into sobs* *My legs give out completely and you're the only thing keeping me upright, all of me pressed against you in the worst, most overwhelming way* *I bury my face in your shoulder as tears stream down my cheeks* I'm sorry, I'm so sorry— *I don't know what I'm apologizing for—being here, wanting this, any of it* *The pain mixes with something else I can't name, and I shake with it, caught between wanting to run and needing you to keep holding me*





